ABC's of being Thankful this year...

So I have seen all over Facebook a bunch of people posting what they are thankful for this year by using the alphabet...and since I didn't catch on to doing that early enough, instead of catching up on there, I thought I would just blog mine instead! So, here we go....

A - Allied - it's the company my husband works for - so thankful he has a job in this economy...

B - Blogs - without them, where would I share all kinds of interesting information? LoL

C - Cell phones - might seem weird to be thankful for them, but it allows me to keep in touch with so many people that I probably wouldn't be able to other wise.
D - Draekon - Destry & I adopted Draek back in March & he has been such a blessing to us!

E - Each & Every day - God does not promise us tomorrow...so I am thankful for the days He gives me!

F - Family - I don't even want to think of where I would be without my family! LOVE YOU!!!

G - God - He is the reason we are all here - without Him, there would be no us..

H - Heaven - Thank You Lord that You created a place for us to go and be with You after we are done on this earth... What an amazing reunion it will be...

I - Instruments - I love hearing music come together and especially when it is to praise the Lord.

J - Jokes - Sometimes just hearing a simple joke - especially from a kid - can make everything better! 

K - Kids - while I do not have any of my own - kids are such a blessing from God & I am thankful for all of the kids who are in my life and will enter into my life eventually.

L - Love - There is so much love in my life from many different places - all put there from God, who is Love!

M - Marriage - I love my husband & being married to him is the most amazing gift I have ever been given!

N - Netflix - So I can watch movies with my hubby any time we want to!

O - Olliver Joel - My beloved puppy who is now in Heaven waiting on me... He taught me how to love. The pain of loosing him is still unbearable, but I know he is still protecting me like he always did.
P - Presents - I love to give presents. It doesn't have to be anything big, just something that I know will put a smile on someones face.

Q - Quiet - Sometimes, the sound of nothing is the best noise ever.

R - Running - Even though I am not always the biggest fan of running, I am very thankful that I can... Not only is it a good form of exercise, but it is the best stress relief as well.

S - Scriptures - I am so thankful that God gave us His Word to read and study... Do not even want to think about what we would do without it.

T - Traveling - It is always fun to explore and learn about a new place.

U - Uniforms - Every time I put on my USAF uniform I am thankful that I have been given the chance to serve this great country & help keep us free.

V - Vehicles - I am very thankful that we have 2 amazing, reliable vehicles that help get us where we need to go.

W - Weekends - The time when I get to spend the most time with my husband!

X - X-rays - Because they are helpful and the only word I could think of that starts with the letter X! Haha

Y - Years - Shows us that God has given us more time to be with the ones we love.

Z - Zoos - I just love animals! :-)

**sigh**

Some days I feel like I am just wandering around aimlessly... Just not sure where to go or what to do.
Some days the pain of missing Olliver is more than I can handle... I lash out at anyone and everyone in order to be able to direct my pain somewhere.
It is just too hard to not have him here... Seems like forever, yet it hasn't even been 3 months yet.
What could I have done differently? I should have been able to save him.
The world keeps spinning and yet I feel like I am standing still...watching it go on...but not able to join in.
I know it will get better, just don't know when or how.
I am relying on God to help me since it is only with His strength that I can continue.
When will the pain not consume me anymore??

Missing you...

I have had a very rough time with Olliver going to Heaven. It was so sudden and so fast that I have been left feeling sad, incomplete and lost. Even though this happened on the 30th of August, the pain is still as present and strong as it was when it first happened. Not a day has gone by that I haven't cried over losing you. Olliver was and will forever be my bestest buddy! He was there when I needed him and I know that he is waiting on the day I get to Heaven so we can once again be together again. I don't know how long it will take to not cry daily. I don't know how long til the pain is something I can live with rather than something that consumes me. But I do know that my baby boy is healthy and smiling in Heaven.

One day we will be together again... one day.

Olliver Joel Farley-Ditto
21 June 2007 - 30 August 2011

Worth the wait....

The reasons why I love you can't be counted. It would be like trying to count the stars.
The way that you make me feel cannot be matched by anyone in this world.
God did an awesome job bringing us together - He had our union planned all along.
If there is one thing I can say it is you were worth the wait!

Even though we knew one another growing up, it took us longer to find one another.
But when we did, it has been amazing watching God work out the little pieces.
You and I are meant to be together, meant to do great things for Him.
All I know is, you were definitely worth the wait.

We still have a few days until we unite together with God before our friends and family,
But that does not change the fact that we will, no matter what obstacles we have to overcome.
In Psalm 73:23-24 God tells us He will never leave us,
Which tells me that He was with us on our wait.

There is no man who can separate us from one another or come between this bond,
We will be forever united as a cord of 3 strands with God (Ecclesiastes 4:12).
The love that we have for one another cannot be explained with the human brain,
Because God was showing us that we were worth the wait.

So as our wedding day draws closer and we put the final touches on our plans,
Know that God is with us, He is helping us, guiding us and the center of everything.
No matter what life brings our way, we will overcome with God, Just like He brought us through the times before we were us, so we would remember that we were worth the wait.

We will marry...

I should be so excited right now,

Yet lately all I do is shed tears.

It doesn't seem like I have the wow,

That I have looked forward to all these years.

What is missing you might ask?

The peace, the comfort, the support.

Seems like it's a fight to finish every task,

Never leading to a good report.

Will this ever get better?

When will I feel like I should?

Maybe I should write you a letter,

Or even carve it into wood.

Then you'll understand how sad I am,

How much I wish I could enjoy this time.

Makes me sad to know you'll be fam,

Even causes me to learn to rhyme.

The stress is beyond anything I've known,

It cannot be healthy at this level.

Throughout this time I know I have grown,

I know that God has already beat the devil.

Therefore I will not let your bitterness effect me,

My life will be happy despite what you think.

Very soon he & I will become we,

And you will never make us sink.

Thank You Lord for this man I will marry,

He is beyond my every dream.

He makes me want to sing like a canary,

He always make me beam.