Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Introducing....

Well... I guess it is time that I announce on here that Destry & I adopted a little puppy! Yup - that is right... We know that no dog will ever replace the hole in our hearts left when Olliver went to Heaven, but we also know that we have room in our hearts to love another puppy. So we searched and found a little Cavapoo puppy that we adopted. (A Cavapoo is a Cavalier King Charles Spaniel and Poodle mix.) Destry called about her and we took Draekon with us to meet her...they were like instant friends! We spent some time at their house to give the two time to play...even met a couple other dogs, but kept coming back to this little girl. So, we adopted her!

With that said...let me introduce you to our newest addition...

Joy Ariel Ditto
DOB - 4 October 2011
Breed - Cavapoo

Draekon & Joy

It has been challenging to once again add a puppy into the mix of things...but she is doing amazing. She has now gone 3 days without an accident in the house and is so playful! Draek & Joy are a blast to watch...who needs cable?!? Haha

I am sure there will be many more post to come about how she is doing. So, be looking for future updates!

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

ABC's of being Thankful this year...

So I have seen all over Facebook a bunch of people posting what they are thankful for this year by using the alphabet...and since I didn't catch on to doing that early enough, instead of catching up on there, I thought I would just blog mine instead! So, here we go....

A - Allied - it's the company my husband works for - so thankful he has a job in this economy...
B - Blogs - without them, where would I share all kinds of interesting information? LoL
C - Cell phones - might seem weird to be thankful for them, but it allows me to keep in touch with so many people that I probably wouldn't be able to other wise.
D - Draekon - Destry & I adopted Draek back in March & he has been such a blessing to us!
E - Each & Every day - God does not promise us tomorrow...so I am thankful for the days He gives me!
F - Family - I don't even want to think of where I would be without my family! LOVE YOU!!!
G - God - He is the reason we are all here - without Him, there would be no us..
H - Heaven - Thank You Lord that You created a place for us to go and be with You after we are done on this earth... What an amazing reunion it will be...
I - Instruments - I love hearing music come together and especially when it is to praise the Lord.
J - Jokes - Sometimes just hearing a simple joke - especially from a kid - can make everything better! 
K - Kids - while I do not have any of my own - kids are such a blessing from God & I am thankful for all of the kids who are in my life and will enter into my life eventually.
L - Love - There is so much love in my life from many different places - all put there from God, who is Love!
M - Marriage - I love my husband & being married to him is the most amazing gift I have ever been given!
N - Netflix - So I can watch movies with my hubby any time we want to!
O - Olliver Joel - My beloved puppy who is now in Heaven waiting on me... He taught me how to love. The pain of loosing him is still unbearable, but I know he is still protecting me like he always did.
P - Presents - I love to give presents. It doesn't have to be anything big, just something that I know will put a smile on someones face.
Q - Quiet - Sometimes, the sound of nothing is the best noise ever.
R - Running - Even though I am not always the biggest fan of running, I am very thankful that I can... Not only is it a good form of exercise, but it is the best stress relief as well.
S - Scriptures - I am so thankful that God gave us His Word to read and study... Do not even want to think about what we would do without it.
T - Traveling - It is always fun to explore and learn about a new place.
U - Uniforms - Every time I put on my USAF uniform I am thankful that I have been given the chance to serve this great country & help keep us free.
V - Vehicles - I am very thankful that we have 2 amazing, reliable vehicles that help get us where we need to go.
W - Weekends - The time when I get to spend the most time with my husband!
X - X-rays - Because they are helpful and the only word I could think of that starts with the letter X! Haha
Y - Years - Shows us that God has given us more time to be with the ones we love.
Z - Zoos - I just love animals! :-)

Thursday, November 17, 2011

**sigh**

Some days I feel like I am just wandering around aimlessly... Just not sure where to go or what to do.
Some days the pain of missing Olliver is more than I can handle... I lash out at anyone and everyone in order to be able to direct my pain somewhere.
It is just too hard to not have him here... Seems like forever, yet it hasn't even been 3 months yet.
What could I have done differently? I should have been able to save him.
The world keeps spinning and yet I feel like I am standing still...watching it go on...but not able to join in.
I know it will get better, just don't know when or how.
I am relying on God to help me since it is only with His strength that I can continue.
When will the pain not consume me anymore??

Monday, October 17, 2011

Missing you...

I have had a very rough time with Olliver going to Heaven. It was so sudden and so fast that I have been left feeling sad, incomplete and lost. Even though this happened on the 30th of August, the pain is still as present and strong as it was when it first happened. Not a day has gone by that I haven't cried over losing you. Olliver was and will forever be my bestest buddy! He was there when I needed him and I know that he is waiting on the day I get to Heaven so we can once again be together again. I don't know how long it will take to not cry daily. I don't know how long til the pain is something I can live with rather than something that consumes me. But I do know that my baby boy is healthy and smiling in Heaven.

One day we will be together again... one day.

Olliver Joel Farley-Ditto
21 June 2007 - 30 August 2011

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Worth the wait....

The reasons why I love you can't be counted. It would be like trying to count the stars.
The way that you make me feel cannot be matched by anyone in this world.
God did an awesome job bringing us together - He had our union planned all along.
If there is one thing I can say it is you were worth the wait!

Even though we knew one another growing up, it took us longer to find one another.
But when we did, it has been amazing watching God work out the little pieces.
You and I are meant to be together, meant to do great things for Him.
All I know is, you were definitely worth the wait.

We still have a few days until we unite together with God before our friends and family,
But that does not change the fact that we will, no matter what obstacles we have to overcome.
In Psalm 73:23-24 God tells us He will never leave us,
Which tells me that He was with us on our wait.

There is no man who can separate us from one another or come between this bond,
We will be forever united as a cord of 3 strands with God (Ecclesiastes 4:12).
The love that we have for one another cannot be explained with the human brain,
Because God was showing us that we were worth the wait.

So as our wedding day draws closer and we put the final touches on our plans,
Know that God is with us, He is helping us, guiding us and the center of everything.
No matter what life brings our way, we will overcome with God, Just like He brought us through the times before we were us, so we would remember that we were worth the wait.

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

We will marry...

I should be so excited right now,
Yet lately all I do is shed tears.
It doesn't seem like I have the wow,
That I have looked forward to all these years.

What is missing you might ask?
The peace, the comfort, the support.
Seems like it's a fight to finish every task,
Never leading to a good report.

Will this ever get better?
When will I feel like I should?
Maybe I should write you a letter,
Or even carve it into wood.

Then you'll understand how sad I am,
How much I wish I could enjoy this time.
Makes me sad to know you'll be fam,
Even causes me to learn to rhyme.

The stress is beyond anything I've known,
It cannot be healthy at this level.
Throughout this time I know I have grown,
I know that God has already beat the devil.

Therefore I will not let your bitterness effect me,
My life will be happy despite what you think.
Very soon he & I will become we,
And you will never make us sink.

Thank You Lord for this man I will marry,
He is beyond my every dream.
He makes me want to sing like a canary,
He always make me beam.

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

I am me.

This is supposed to be an exciting time...
Yet you seem to keep ruining it.
Who ever said you were in charge of this?
Who ever gave you the control?

I am my own person.
I know what I want.
Don't mistake confidence for cockiness.
Don't treat me like I am the enemy.

Love brought us to this point.
And love will take us to the next.
It will be love that will sustain us,
Whether you want it or not.

Learn your limits.
Learn to be a friend.
Realize that I am not you
Which means I will not do things like you.

Just because I like something one way
And do not incorporate your ideas
Does not mean that I didn't listen,
It doesn't mean that I don't care.

I have my own way of doing things.
My own experiences I am playing from.
If you had taken the time to get to know me
You would know better who I am.

I'm sorry you don't like me
I'm sorry I'm not who you wanted
But I am not going to allow you to effect my life
I will continue to carry on.

Maybe someday it will be different.
Maybe we can learn to be friends.
That will require you taking the time to get to know me
And understanding why I am, who I am.

Thursday, June 30, 2011

Only God...

How do you say goodbye when you just aren't ready...
How do I move on with my life without you here...
How do I feel knowing I can't talk to you...
Only God can guide me.

Wishing there had been more time...
Yet glad you are healthy and whole in His arms...
It won't be easy to learn to go on without you...
Only God can guide me.

Memories of you continue to flood my mind....
I just sit here and think of you, of all the joy and love you shared...
Knowing that you touched so many lives...
Only God can guide me.

The call still rings in my mind...
The one that said you were now in Heaven...
How do I go on without you....
Only God can guide me.

So thankful that your pain is gone even though mine is just starting...
Already there's so much you've missed down here...
But I know you are watching from up above....
Only God can guide me.

Please know your memory will always live on....
We could never forget you or all that you did....
With God's help we will continue on until we meet again...
Only God can guide me.

Monday, June 27, 2011

Introducing: Deidra

So I saw this post on a blog that said "Show Us Your Singles" and I knew I needed to talk about my best friend! Her name is Deidra, she is in her early-30's and is the most amazing person I know! I met her about 10 years ago and we instantly became friends for life. When you meet her you instantly feel like you have been friends for years! She truly is an amazing Christian woman who just lights up a room with her smile and laughter.

Me & Deidra in December 2010
Deidra is the sweetest person I know. She lives in Lima, Ohio where she also works as the Assistant Manager at a daycare. Her passion for children just amazes me; she cares for each and every one of them as if they were her own. Watching her interact with the kids is just amazing as well because all of the children just adore her!
This is Deidra with one of the girls she used to babysit, Emily
Among so many other things, Deidra is extremely creative in both design and photography. She has created many cards for different occasions for both her own use and to sell for others; she even created my wedding invitations for me and is working on another order for another bride right now. In the photography area, she has done many senior picture sessions as well as wedding and family pictures and her landscape pictures make you feel like you are there when looking at the pictures. She is very modest about her talents, but it is easy to notice them.

Deidra with her friend Shanda
Shopping and fun in TN
Deidra is a devout Christian and is always there to pray with you when you need her. I continue to pray that God brings a good Christian man into her life and so I thought I would try putting her on here. If you are interested... leave a comment with your email and name so that I can pass it along to Deidra!

Friday, June 17, 2011

GOD IS THINKING ABOUT YOU TODAY!!!

Psalms 139:17-18 - 'How precious it is, Lord, to realize that you are thinking about me constantly! I can't even count how many times a day your thoughts turn towards me. And when I wake in the morning, your are still thinking of me'! (The Living Bible)


This verse is vital to life. I think that it is time that we all share this verse to everyone that we see and come in contact with. There is too much going on in this world where so many people feel alone and like no one cares. People are thinking that there is no way for life to get better since they are looking through human eyes. It is time we start looking through spiritual eyes and understand that God loves us, thinks about us and is there for us.


When it seems like there is no answer left to all our problems in life, that is time that we need to fall on our knees. That is the best answer to any problem that life throws at us. God is there. He is willing to help us. He wants to help us. All we have to do is call on His name. If we do not know how to do that, then we need to get a hold of anyone we know who will help us, pray with us. That is an unselfish answer to the problems we face in this life.


Thank You Lord for thinking about me on a daily basis. Thank You that when I feel alone, all I have to do is call out to You and know that You are there for me, thinking about me, guiding me, loving me. There are no problems in this life that I cannot handle with your guidance, so thank You for continually being there for me.


I love You Lord. God continue to guide and protect me through the daily challenges and trials of this life. 

Thursday, June 9, 2011

How does he make it better....?

So I saw this question online this morning and it really got me thinking.... And even though I am not actually married yet (93 more days!!!) I thought I would take time to think about this question & answer it where I am now in life...

The question is:
How does your spouse make your life better?

Now - like I said, I am not yet married, but I am so beyond excited to be married to the man of my dreams, the man who is more than I ever knew I needed! So, let me answer this question about how my fiance makes my life better...keeping in mind that in just a day over 3 months, I will call him my husband!

Before I met Destry (again!) I was just going through life. I was always dreaming about what I wanted out of life, this fantasy of where I wanted to go, the type of person I wanted there with me and what life would be like once I found him. Well, let me tell you, life with Destry is nothing like what I dreamed about all those years. He is a million times better.

It is amazing what happens in life when we stop trying to control everything and let God take control and do as He knows we need...which, let me tell you, is a million times better than what we could ever do on our own!

So how does Destry make my life better? Well, let me tell you....
I have always been very independent and thrived on living my life that way. Destry has taught me that I can be the same independent woman that I have always been, and yet still depend on him in a healthy manner. He has shown me how to love.

Having someone that I can talk to about anything and everything, knowing it will not ever make him not like or love me, is such a blessing. No matter what I am going through I know that he is there for me, supporting me, loving me, proud of me. That is a feeling that cannot ever be explained, just experienced through true, honest, Godly love from another person.

I can be mad, sad, angry, happy, silly, goofy, blah, distant, needy, silent... Any emotion that I could think of & it only makes Destry love me more. He allows me to be me... which I have the honor of reciprocating right back to him. Allowing each other to be who we are only enhances our love for one another and brings our bond closer.

So how does Destry make my life better? I cannot even begin to count the ways. He is more than I ever knew I needed and never knew I wanted.... But never want to be without ever again.

When you find love like this, hold on tight and never let them go. Cherish every moment with them. Never forget to tell them  you love them. Never stay mad at them. Work through your issues quickly so you can get back to the love. Be there for them when they need you to be, and they will repay the favor. We are not promised tomorrow and therefore make today count. Make today full of the love that makes your life better because they are in it with you.

S. Destry Ditto - I love you more than words can express. I thank God daily for bringing you into my life and making it so much better than I ever knew I needed. Thank you for loving me no matter what and for always talking to me through whatever I am going through. When life seems to be spiraling out of control, you somehow always find a way to make the spinning stop and make everything make sense again. I love you more and more each and every single day that we are together and leaves me praying for one more day to show you all the love that you continually show me.

My life started when Destry & I started dating... I never want to go back to the days before him. His love makes every single thing better in my life.

So...how does your spouse make your life better?

:-)

Saturday, June 4, 2011

Just 98 more days...

Well, I must say that today is one special day! Not only has it been ONE YEAR since Destry proposed to me in the park... but we are now just 98 days away from becoming husband and wife! So yes, you might say that today is a day of celebration!


It just seems hard to believe that it has been a year already since Destry gave me the biggest surprise of my life by asking me to marry him! I still think about it continually and remember just how shocked I was and honestly had no clue what was going on at the time. I must have asked him if he was serious at least 100x! It probably took like a week of staring at the ring for it to actually sink in. LoL I still don't remember exactly what he said/asked - just remember he was on one knee & holding a diamond ring in his hand! Haha I'm sure by now if he wasn't really asking me to marry him he would have told me!...right? 


With so many wedding plans already taken care of it is great to realize that we are finally in double-digits on our countdown to the BIG DAY! We pretty much have the summer to finalize all our plans, and one August roles around we will be full swing into all the wedding activities! Even though I never wanted to have a big wedding, I know this is something that Destry wants, and therefore I am doing my best to be excited about all of it. Really - I just want to be his wife! That is what matters! 


So, with that said - today Destry and I celebrate our ENGAGEMENT ANNIVERSARY and look forward to the last 98 days as an engaged couple while we look forward to becoming a MARRIED COUPLE!


Here's to the fun-filled summer we have ahead of us!!!


:-) 

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Update....

Wow! I just cannot believe that today is June 1st! It just does not seem possible that we are already in the month of June...but at the same time, I am so excited that the time is going so quickly as this summer I have a lot to look forward to!

Saturday, 4June, will be ONE YEAR since Destry proposed to me! I still remember the day like it was yesterday because it was the happiest day of my life! He worked so hard to ensure that the day was special and memorable to me which is just what it is for me. I was in so much shock that day and now, I am in shock that it's already been a year! I just love him beyond words and cannot wait to call him my husband!

The actual moment Destry asked me to marry him...6-4-10
I also have like 11 1/2 weeks of school left until I graduate with my Masters of Divinity (classes end 19Aug2011). I am so excited for this since I have been working so hard to complete the course requirements over the last 5 years. Graduating with my BS in Religion in April 2009 was a huge accomplishment, but I think that earning my masters will be even more of an accomplishment! So I have been studying really hard and working continually to ensure that I am getting the grades I need in order to graduate without any more delays.

Then - if that wasn't enough - Destry & I get married three weeks later on 9.10.11!! We are so excited and really ready for our wedding day to be here. The planning has actually went very well and I do not think I have stressed out too much. Of course like every bride I have had my moments where I want things done my way for one reason or another, but overall I have tried to keep all our immediate family involved and tried to ensure that I use pieces of everyones ideas in order to make our day our own.

Life this summer will be busy and yet exciting at the same time since we have so much going on. Enjoying the time with our doggies is going to be a lot of the fun we have since we ensure we keep them outside and playing.

Draekon & Olliver
Let's see what the rest of the summer brings!!

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Clarity of mind

Have you ever been confused about something and just did not know what the answer was or how to get unconfused? Well, that is where I am. But I think that we need to keep in mind that God is not the author of confusion... the devil is and therefore if we are confused, we need only to tell the devil to shut up and leave us alone.

Yes, this could be difficult, especially if we have been listening to the confusing lies for a while... but it is necessary. God does not want us confused about anything. He does not want us to sit here and wonder which direction we should go. He wants us to be of clear and sound mind so that we can best honor Him in all that we do. It is important to seek God in times of confusion so that we can shut the devil's lies out and ensure that we are able to clearly think and help others see that the devil is who wants them to stay confused.

When we have a big decision to make it is important that we do not let ourselves get confused. If we spend so much time debating back and forth then we will allow the devil to have a place in our lives and cause us so much confusion that we can drive ourselves crazy. Making decision are easy when we seek God and His guidance...allowing for Him to show us His plans for our lives.

"I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord, plans not to harm you but to give you hope and future." Jeremiah 29:11

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Blah...Blah...

Well - this week I started my final 14 weeks of school until I can officially graduate with my Masters of Divinity degree with a focus in Chaplaincy. I am so excited that this journey I have been on is close to coming to completion. It has been a long 5 1/2 years to work towards completing my Masters degree...and thankfully I have already received two degrees along my way to keep me motivated. 

Even though I am having a lot of trouble focusing on my homework right now that I have been given to complete, I know that I need to complete it and to the best of my ability. 

So as the next few weeks of school go by I thank everyone for their prayers and for their support in helping me stay motivated in order to arrive at the finish line. I know that God has given me the ability to complete this assignment for Him to continue to do His work. So for this reason, I know that I will have the strength to get through these next weeks in order to be awarded my MDiv and find a position in order to continue to do God's work on a higher level.

Thanks for your prayers...

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Tuesday Stealing...

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
**Oh I'm not sure I could put that on here...it wouldn't be pretty!

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
**To help someone else through their problems/issues/hard times...

3. What is the one thing most hated by you?
**Fakeness...Just be real with me.


4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
**Tithe, buy the house/land Destry & I want, buy my parents the house/land they wanted...then invest on my families future

5. Could you fall in love with your best friend?
**I have... He is amazing!


6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
**Both... Loving someone is such an amazing feeling - but being loved by someone is an indescribable feeling.


7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
**I don't have to...My love has found me.


8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
**Well the person I like is who I am engaged to, so I think he knows! :-)
9. If you'd like to act (movies, stage) with someone, who would it be? 
**Vin Diesel 

10. What do you expect of your loved one?
**Be honest & talk to me


11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
**Gosh...I'll be 38 in ten years... So happily married with a couple kids and hopefully at least one book on the Best Seller list


12. What’s your fear?
**Drowning


13. Would you rather be single and rich or married, but poor?
**Married & Rich :-)


14. What’s the first thing you do when you wake up?
**Go potty & then take the dogs potty
15. Do you ever hold back in a relationship?
**It's been a rough lesson to learn not to.


16. If you fell in love with two people simultaneously, how would you pick?
**Whoever God created me for...but it won't happen since I am in love with the most amazing man.


17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing that special someone has done?
**I don't know...honestly can't answer this right now.
18. What are your three most important expectations in love?
**Communication, love, support

Friday, April 29, 2011

Why?

Sometimes life does not make sense.
Sometimes we have to deal with things we never thought would happen.
Sometimes confusion is all we have at the end of the day.
Sometimes we are only left with why.

It always happens at the strangest of times.
It happens like we don't expect.
Just when you think all is going well,
The news leaves us with a single word...why?

What causes it to get this far?
Why is there no other way?
Why didn't you ask for help?
Please just tell us... Tell us why.

It seems so selfish for you to go...and yet selfish to say that we feel that way.
There are no answers, there is no explanation.
All we are left with is confusion and shock,
And continually asking "why"?

It is never expected, it is never understood.
It never makes sense, it leaves you in a fog.
Clouding your thoughts and leaves you wanting to understand.
As it starts to sink in, you cry while still asking "Why?"

It appeared as if life was good, appeared that life was happy.
No one ever imagined it would be you.
You had so much to stay here for,
Now all who loved you just sit and wonder why.

All we can do is pray for those you left behind,
Pray they find some comfort, some peace.
What could we have done differently,
So we weren't left here with tears and trying to understand why.

Friday, April 1, 2011

Who cares?

Okay - so I know that there is this huge Royal wedding coming up in a few weeks, but honestly, who cares? I mean, he's been dating this girl for like 8 years or more, off and on... And the amount of money that is being spent on the wedding is beyond ridiculous! I mean, there are many other things going on in this world in which that kind of money could be spent! Instead, they choose to spend it on such a lavish event that who could be comfortable going to any such wedding?

Then I hear on the radio this morning that the Prince has decided that he will not wear a wedding band... Just as his father chose with Princess Diana. Now, I can understand some men not wearing a wedding band based on their profession or daily job.... But only while they are working. I mean, a mechanic or factory worker...it could be dangerous to wear rings... But the Prince? Really? What does he do that he cannot wear a wedding band? I mean, I think I would take that personal!

Well, it's not like no one will know he is married since reporters saying that the "whole world will be watching" but still... I would want my husband to be proud to wear the wedding band I put on his finder when we got married. It just seems like the right thing to do.

So are they skipping the wedding band part of the ceremony? Like they are altering their vows to one another?

I just find the publicity on this whole event just shocking. We cannot cover the men and women putting their lives on the line on a daily basis in anything but a negative manner - but we can spend countless hours talking about the "Royal Wedding" coming up! Seriously? Who cares about them! There are hundreds of other people getting married this year too...and spending millions less on their weddings! None of them are getting the same coverage.

Will I watch the wedding on TV? Probably not. Mainly because we do not have cable in our house... but even if we did... well I don't know, I might flip it on just to see what all the fuss is about...but that's it.

Thursday, March 31, 2011

The Widow of Zarephath

How many people know who this woman is? Heard anything about her prior to reading this blog? Well, I kinda knew an overview of her story - and after studying her for this weeks class, I really wish that there was more information provided about her. I would really like to know what she was thinking at different times in her story and why she reacted in the which she did.


So let's turn to 1 Kings and see where her story begins.
Verses 8-11
Then the word of the LORD came to him: “Go at once to Zarephath in the region of Sidon and stay there. I have directed a widow there to supply you with food.” So he went to Zarephath. When he came to the town gate, a widow was there gathering sticks. He called to her and asked, “Would you bring me a little water in a jar so I may have a drink?” As she was going to get it, he called, “And bring me, please, a piece of bread.”


Interesting information...
God sent Elijah to Zarephath where he was told that a widow would take care of him. Now, widow's in this time period were basically 2nd class citizens. No one cared about them. No one helped them. Since women could not provide financially for themselves, if they did not have any family around to help them, or a son old enough to work, then they would basically just die after their resources were used up. 
Also - Zarephath was a good 80-90 miles away from Kerith, where Elijah was at the beginning of chapter 17. Zarephath is located on the Mediterranean near Tyre and Sidon, which is close to modern day Lebanon. So God was calling him to travel this great distance in order to get food from a widow...when Elijah knew how widow's were treated and their typical wellbeing at this time.


When Elijah sees this widow woman, he asks her for a drink of water (v.10)... She obediently goes to get some, and then he calls after her, asking for a piece of bread (v.11).


What do you think would be going through the widow's mind when Elijah asks her to bring him a piece of bread?
"Oh sure! You'd like bread huh? Well so would I!"
"Why don't I just go kill a cow and we'll all feast together... sound good to you?"


I can hear her having an inner battle of what to actually say to this man... but what actually comes out, is still sarcastic - yet it says so much about her...


1 Kings 17:12
“As surely as the LORD your God lives,” she replied, “I don’t have any bread—only a handful of flour in a jar and a little olive oil in a jug. I am gathering a few sticks to take home and make a meal for myself and my son, that we may eat it—and die.”


What a sarcastic, yet honest answer...


So what does Elijah say in reply to her? (verses 13-15a)
Elijah said to her, “Don’t be afraid. Go home and do as you have said. But first make a small loaf of bread for me from what you have and bring it to me, and then make something for yourself and your son. For this is what the LORD, the God of Israel, says: ‘The jar of flour will not be used up and the jug of oil will not run dry until the day the LORD sends rain on the land.’” She went away and did as Elijah told her.


First thing to note here - which my dad pointed out in class last night - that Elijah tells this widow "Well, don't be afraid - but you go do just as you have said"... which tells her to go ahead and make that meal & die...BUT before you do - why don't you make me something to eat! Haha Got to love the sarcasm that is all through this part of the story... She speaks to him with sarcasm, so he speaks the same right back to her!


Second - He is asking her to tithe... To give him the first fruit of all she has to him... Then, with what is left, take care of feeding herself and her son. Because she was willing to give this tithe, she was blessed miraculously...


Third - He provides her a blessing for doing as he asks/commands. If she is willing to do this thing he is requesting of her...then he tells her that flour and oil will not run out until the Lord sends rain to the land again. This is the same thing that God asks of us - give Him the first 10% of our income so that He may bless our remaining 90%.


Instead of cursing him and getting upset at his request, she obediently goes off to make him the food. She was probably wondering if God even saw her...if He even noticed that she existed. And now, some prophet was having her use some of the extremely small amount of food she had left for herself and her young son to feed him. She must have felt like this was the lowest of low...the worst of all situations. She could have turned Elijah away and said "No thank you" to all he was saying. But instead, she chose to believe and trust in God.


I have to wonder how long God had been preparing this woman for this very situation... Had she been praying everyday, watching the flour and oil go down on a daily basis, basically begging God to save her & her son? So when Elijah came, and told her the blessing of helping him, did she feel a peace, because God had been preparing her?


Her obedient response to Elijah's request showed her obedience in the Lord. The Lord honored His promise to her by ensuring the flour and oil did not run out until the rain came back to the land.



This miracle of God's continually supplying flour and olive oil was another protest against Baal, just as was the drought.
Baal-worshipers believed he was a fertility god, giving rain to make crops grow.

But Baal could not overcome the drought to make wheat and olive trees grow.
Only the true God could provide flour and oil in a drought!

Psalm 146:5-10
5 But joyful are those who have the God of Israel as their helper, whose hope is in the Lord their God.
6 He made heaven and earth, the sea, and everything in them. He keeps every promise forever.
7 He gives justice to the oppressed and food to the hungry. The Lord frees the prisoners.
8 The Lord opens the eyes of the blind. The Lord lifts up those who are weighed down. The Lord loves the godly.
9 The Lord protects the foreigners among us. He cares for the orphans and widows, but he frustrates the plans of the wicked.
10 The Lord will reign forever. He will be your God, O Jerusalem, throughout the generations. Praise the Lord!



These verses in Psalm basically overview of this widow's story.... verse 7 says that God will give food to the hungry - which God did for this widow woman and her son. Verse 9 says He will protect the widows, which people of her own town would not do. Verse 9 also says that God will frustrates the plans of the wicked - which God did when Baal could not.


God provided for this woman - once she put her trust in Him.


BUT - the story does not end here...


1 Kings 17:17-24

17 Some time later the son of the woman who owned the house became ill. He grew worse and worse, and finally stopped breathing. 18 She said to Elijah, “What do you have against me, man of God? Did you come to remind me of my sin and kill my son?”
 19 “Give me your son,” Elijah replied. He took him from her arms, carried him to the upper room where he was staying, and laid him on his bed. 20 Then he cried out to the LORD, “LORD my God, have you brought tragedy even on this widow I am staying with, by causing her son to die?” 21 Then he stretched himself out on the boy three times and cried out to the LORD, “LORD my God, let this boy’s life return to him!”
 22 The LORD heard Elijah’s cry, and the boy’s life returned to him, and he lived. 23Elijah picked up the child and carried him down from the room into the house. He gave him to his mother and said, “Look, your son is alive!”
 24 Then the woman said to Elijah, “Now I know that you are a man of God and that the word of the LORD from your mouth is the truth.”

Now - in verse 18 she asks Elijah if he came to remind her of her sin.. Now, nothing I could find actually stated what this sin was. But after last nights discussion - her sin was a sin of disbelief. Think about this - how many times does God tell us to put our trust in Him, and at the slightest uncertain moment, we doubt everything He has done for us in the past and everything that He has told us. Maybe this was what the widow was doing...every morning she went to the jar doubting that the miracle happened yet again... and when she opened it up, saw enough to make food for her, her son & Elijah she praised God. Then as the day wore on, she started to worry again about whether or not there would be food the next day.


And yet - no matter what she did - God once again was merciful and gave her son his life back. In doing this, He not only saved the son's life, but the widow's - again - as well. By giving the son his life back, God ensured that once he was old enough to work, he would be able to provide for his mother.


Her final statement in verse 24 is a shocking one - after everything God had done for this woman day after day after month after month... She says that after her son's life was returned to him, now she believes! 


Now we need to think about this... This Phoenician woman learned about God first-hand from one of His prophets... We might be tempted to say, "Well, that was all fine and dandy for her back then, but we can't have the same experience today..." That is where you are wrong. We can. God has allowed for His people to work in churches as a way of providing us the first-hand help throughout our lives in the same way that He did by sending Elijah to this widow.


We need to remember all that God has done for us. This widow continually doubted. Every day for over 3 years God provided food for her and her family...yet she continually doubted that He would do it the next day. It took her son dying and God giving him his life back for her to truly believe.


How often do we forget everything God says and has done for us when a crisis comes up in our lives? We should be on our knees at the first sign of trouble asking God for His help and His mercy in the situation we are facing. Instead of calling our pastors to complain about God and what is going on - why don't we call them and tell them that we are thanking God for His provisions and thanking our pastors for standing with us? 


What point do we have to get to in our life before we can truly believe God? We need to not doubt as much and as long as this widow did. It would help to start a journal... What are you thankful for everyday? What did God do in your life today? That way, when we feel doubt starting to come back up in our minds, we can look back over all that God has done and remember - which will eliminate doubt.


We need to stop doubting God & trust Him. Be thankful for all the He is doing in our lives...and not forget it as things get rough in our life.

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Proud Mommy....

Last night, when Destry got home from work, we took the dogs next door to the track for a walk. Olliver & I were together & Destry had Draek. Draek hasn't been on a leash before, so we knew it was going to be interesting! When we just let the leash drag, and him walk with us, he was fine. When we tried to hold the leash, he was not happy! So, letting the leash drag we made it through 2 laps - which is 1/2 mile. Destry & Draek would stop sometimes, letting Olliver & I get ahead, then Destry would tell Draek to catch me & Olliver... so he would sprint! He wore himself out! It was so cute. He actually slept 6 straight hours last night! I feel like a proud mommy! Haha

Guess we know how to wear down a little puppy so that he gets some good sleep & the exercise he needs... especially since it is almost 10am and he is still sleeping! LoL

Friday, March 25, 2011

Lot's Wife

Okay - I was really busy yesterday so I didn't get a chance to post anything from my class Wednesday night...so I thought I would do it today.

This past Wednesday night I taught on Lot's Wife. Go all the way back to Genesis chapter 19 in order to find out the little bit about Lot's wife that we know... Now, the main thing that people know about her is that she disobeyed God's command when she escaped Sodom by looking back and therefore she turned into salt. Right? Well, I wanted to know more than that....

Lot was Abram's nephew who Abram had taken with him even though God told him not to. Even though Abram disobeyed God, he and Lot were so blessed that they could no longer live together (Gen 13:5-7a). So Lot looked around and saw Sodom (v.13) and decided to settle there amongst all of the sin and wickedness going on in the whole city.

Turning to Genesis 18, God decided to destroy Sodom because of all the evil and wickedness in the city but Abram intervenes on behalf of his nephew and his family. After bargaining with God, Abram asked if just 10 righteous people could be found in Sodom, if God would not destroy it... God agrees...but 10 people cannot be found.

God offers mercy to us in the same way he did to Lot and his family - even when they did not deserve it...

Read:
Deuteronomy 13:17
Psalm 25:6
Jeremiah 3:12

God decides to destroy Sodom - so He sends 2 angels to the city to get Lot's family out. Lot knew they were angels and therefore insisted they stay at his house - knowing what would happen to them if they stayed out in the public square. Upon this - all the men of the city (both young and old) came to Lot's house looking for the men in order to molest them. That shows just how wicked and evil this city is - no wonder God plans to destroy it!

Genesis 19:1-8 goes through the angels coming, Lot taking them in, the men coming to molest the angels & then Lot offering his daughters in place of the angels to all the men of the city.

Imagine Lot's wife hearing all of this... Listening to all the events as they play out in the other room. Women had no say in the family life during this time in history - so no matter what she thought or what she felt, it would not have mattered or changed anything.

Continuing through this story - Genesis 19:12-14 shows how Lot went to his sons-in-law to tell them to prepare to leave - but they laughed and thought he was a fool. The angels insisted that Lot pack his family to leave, yet he hesitated. In verse 16 the angels actually grab Lot and his family by the hands and pulled them out telling them they had to leave because Sodom was going to be destroyed.

Still - this is not good enough for Lot - he continues asking the angels for favors (Gen 19:18-22) by saying they don't want to go as far as the angels told them to go, and asks if they can just go to Zoar instead... So upon agreement, they are heading towards Zoar...and just as they are almost there, Lot's wife hesitated and looks back, and since she disobeyed God, she was turned into a pillar of salt.

Why did Lot's wife turn around...?
We read in chapter 13 that Lot was very wealthy... and if Lot was in the city gate when the angels arrived then he was in works to be a judge, which was a wealthy position. So she was leaving behind a lot of wealth, possessions and earthly good. Also, if you read the Scriptures, she most likely left family behind. Lot offered his daughters who were virgins (v.8) Then the angels told Lot to go talk to his sons and daughters and sons-in-law (Gen 19:12) and so Lot went to talk to his sons-in-law (v.14). Then the angels told Lot to take the daughters that are in the house and flee (v.15). So there is most likely other children around in the city of Sodom who did not flee with the family. She could have been looking back to see if possibly they were following.

Either way - it does not matter. She disobeyed the commands from God - 1 John 2:15-17 tells us to not love the things of this world. God was trying to save her and she made a choice to go against God which cost her her own life.

Do not be so attached to the things of this world that when God tells us to move, flee or do something, we look back with longing as Lot's wife did....

Monday, March 21, 2011

Life...

This past weekend, Destry & I had so much fun... We did not do anything special, but we had both the dogs together all weekend. Olliver is not doing as well as I would like, but mainly because he was trained to ignore other dogs, and now there is another dog in his house! LoL

**Smiling in our backyard**
We all played and laughed and had a great time. I had forgotten how much work having a puppy was though but we are still enjoying it. Destry gets up a few times a night to let Draek out to go potty. It is just preparing us for having a baby later in life...hahaha

**My boys all sleeping together on the couch**
We did take both the boys with us on our weekly drive to Mansfield for church. We ended up coming over on Saturday evening so that we were not trying to make it 3hours in the car in one day for Draek. Olliver can handle that, but we wanted to be fair to Draek.

**Draekon got very comfy in the truck on the drive**
Draek is very underweight and so it is important for us to keep feeding him properly and ensuring he gets all the nutrition necessary. After he ate dinner last night, he was such a rolly-polly little guy that Destry & I just laughed.

**Olliver & Draek watching the garage where Destry just went**
Unfortunately, Olliver & I had to leave them this morning... We are both sad... So I have Olliver with me & Destry has Draek with him... It is hard to have our family split in half... Especially knowing that the wedding is still 173 days away - which means that's how long it is until we can all be together all the time. But, we will make it through... enjoying our time that we do all still have together.

**Draek & Destry**
My goal...to try and do homework while Olliver sleeps in the hopes that we will not cry as we miss Destry & Draek...

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Draekon Arieh Ditto

DESTRY & I ARE PARENTS AGAIN!

**Draek**
LoL

Okay - let me clarify... We adopted a little puppy last night! Destry found him online & as soon as I got off work yesterday I went to the local shelter here in Mansfield to take a look at him. We went into the play room and he just captured my heart. All he wanted was some love. He had been taken into the shelter as a stray. They estimated him at about 3months old...so Destry & I decided to make his birthday 24Dec2010. He is a shepherd mix, but they aren't sure what he is mixed with.

**Laying in the middle of all the toys Olliver left at the house**
Destry is taking him to the vet today to ensure that he is healthy and is up-to-date on all of his shots. Then tomorrow afternoon I will take Olliver over to meet him. We are so excited about the addition to our family! Destry chose "Draekon" as his name... we will call him "Draek" for short. Then I chose "Arieh" as his middle name because it is the name of a Biblical bodyguard...the name means "lion"...

**All curled up in Destry's coat**

Thursday, March 10, 2011

The Queen of Sheba

I know I haven't written in a while... I have been swamped with school though and it has consumed all of my time. With that said - I did not even teach my class last night at church. :-( Mom taught for me and she did a wonderful job. She taught us on "The Queen of Sheba"! Yes, a name so many of us have heard over the years, but yet, what do we really know about her? Well, that is just what mom taught us last night.

The Queen of Sheba was an amazing woman. She was a great queen and very rich. She loved adventure and enjoyed going out and looking for adventure. Also - she had heard of King Solomon and all that he was saying. See, King Solomon was very rich as well, and he openly served God and thanked God for everything that happened in his life. Word of this got all the way to the Queen and she wanted to know more about what King Solomon was talking about.

So she packed up her caravan and traveled to where King Solomon was...it was a 6 month long journey. This did not sway her from wanting to go and talk with the King and learn. See, the Queen of Sheba was a pagan. She served "gods" but not God. But after talking with King Solomon and learning about God from him, she went back to her country & was actually credited with bringing Christianity to her people.

See - she heard what was being said by King Solomon...and she wanted to learn more. She was not satisfied with just hearing through the grapevine... She wanted to learn directly from the King himself. That is how people should be today. And we, as Christians, should be like King Solomon. Giving God praise, openly for all to hear, for all He is doing in our life. Then, the "Queens" of the world will want to come and hear from us more information on God and how to make Him the leader in their life as well.

Look her up. There is SOOOOO much information on her. I barely skimmed the surface here!

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Miss Hannah

So this week in the G2 class to my church I chose to teach/talk about Hannah. Now her name is more commonly heard of, but do we really know what she is known for in the Scriptures? Or is it just a pretty name with a good meaning ("graciousness" or "favor") that we use to name baby girls?

Well Hannah is found in 1 Samuel 1:1-2:11 and 2:19-21. When you read her story you quickly realize that she had many problems in her life. First, her husband, Elkanah, had another wife, Peninnah. Second, Peninnah had many children with Elkanah but Hannah, though she longed to have children, had none. Third, Peninnah taunted, teased and ridiculed Hannah for being barren. Fourth, Elkanah did not understand why Hannah was so distraught about not having children.

In 1 Samuel 1:5-6, it states twice that "the Lord had closed her womb." So it was no accident that she was not having any children, her womb was closed by the Lord.

When reading Hannah's story, we see that every year she went with the entire family to worship in Shiloh at the temple. This particular year, the harassing by Peninnah became unbearable. The Scriptures state that Peninnah "provoked her till she wept and would not eat (v.7)." Now that is some harassing! How many of us women (or men!) have allowed someone else's words to get to us so much that we could not even eat? It made us sick to listen to what they were saying to us...

To make matters worse, she went to the temple to talk to God and pour her heart out to Him and Eli, the priest, misunderstood her to the point of saying "How long will you keep on getting drunk? Get rid of your wine (v. 14)." Now that is some misunderstanding!

So, not only has the Lord closed her womb and she cannot have children, her husbands other wife picks on her non-stop, her husband does not understand her and now the priest is calling her a drunk! And you thought you had problems! Haha

Having a child at the time that Hannah lived was more than just having a child. It was expected. It was a way of life. Women were around to have children to carry on the family line. I am sure that Peninnah was not the only one who was picking on her and whispering about her. Imagine all the women she grew up with. When they saw her around town and they had all these kids, yet she had none, I am sure they picked on her too. Being infertile brought about disapproval of the womans family and rejection of society. Israelites saw children as a blessing from God. Since she could not have children, she was considered "subfemale."

Through all of these situations - Hannah replied to Eli calling her drunk and said:

v.15-18
"Not so, my lord," Hannah replied, "I am a woman who is deeply troubled. I have not been drinking wine or beer; I was pouring out my soul to the Lord. Do not take your servant for a wicked woman; I have been praying here out of my great anguish and grief."
Eli answered, "Go in peace, and may the God of Israel grant you what you have asked of him."
She said, "May your servant find favor in your eyes." Then she went her way and ate something, and her face was no longer downcast.

Hannah could have went off on Eli for calling her a drunk (since it was pretty much the last straw in all the bad that was happening in her life) but instead she told him what was going on. I am sure she said it with some sort of attitude, I mean she is a woman!

But did you see what happened? In verse 18 it says that "her face was no longer downcast." She believed what God said to her through Eli, trusted it to be true and did not question it to the point that it caused a PHYSICAL change in her. Think about it... She was continually ridiculed, misunderstood time and time again... She was probably depressed. Then, she gets a word from God & it changes her.

How many times are we longing for something in our life, asking God for something, and when He gives us an answer and yet we question Him? She took His answer as comfort and leaned on His words to change her. Why don't we do the same? Insert your situation into the story. What are you longing for so badly, what are people picking on you about continually, what are you being misunderstood about? Do you complain continually about it and let their words get to you? Or do you turn to God and allow His reply, His words to comfort you?

It's time we learn from Hannah and when God gives us revelation we do not question it! We take His words and stand firm on them, leaning on them when times get hard, and do not falter when it takes longer than we wish it would for His promise to come true.

Read, study and learn from Hannah. She is an amazing woman in the bible that we can use in our own lives today!

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Building an ark...

So last week we had all of that snow & ice. If that wasn't bad enough, Sunday night we had a huge thunder storm which raised temperatures and dropped over 2 inches of rain... which melted the snow and ice. This created massive flooding all over the state.I did not realize it was even raining (yes, I slept through the storm!) but the rain just did not seem to stop.

Turns out that the rain, and all the melting snow together created massive damage all over the state. So many roads were closed (some still are) and majority of schools were effected in one way or another. I drove home from Lima yesterday morning and there were so many fields that were flooded. The amount of water was just amazing.

With all the damage that has occurred to peoples houses, cars, businesses and everything else, I want everyone to know that I am praying. This is a crazy time with how much the schools have already been closed this year... people not having flood insurance on their houses... and even our local post office being severely damaged in the rains...

We need to turn to God & allow Him to help us through this time. It is the perfect time to allow God to take over the worry, pain and suffering from this time.

Praying for all of those who are affected by the flooding....